(Para​)​-​Social Club vol. 1

by (Para)-Social Club

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This could be the death of us I wish that I could wake you up We're falling away Falling away We're falling away Falling away
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Have we met before Oh this world’s a blur Curse my twisted soul Try to mix my words because You are familiar Strangely familiar to me All abhorred the party bust You’re so familiar to me Strangely familiar Strangely familiar to me Got the music that unnerves Strangely familiar to me Have we been here before Something feels like it’s old Twisted universe Try to calm my nerves because You are familiar Strangely familiar to me All abhorred the party bust You’re so familiar to me Strangely familiar Strangely familiar to me Got the music that unnerves Strangely familiar to me You are familiar Strangely familiar to me Strangely familiar You’re so familiar to me
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androgyny, well cant you see i talk so soft and stupidly thought i was dead, asleep instead no one to talk to even then there are these thoughts, come up a lot too much to say here in a song put me in skirts, say i'm the worst i hope it's just your way to flirt its just routine im just scared ill hide in your backyard i'll just sleep there i dont know what you mean i dont care ill hide in your backyard follow me there when we were young i played the Drums I think I thought about you some well it was fly, but I wonder why we're just sat here with our Bud Lights if you're a little drunk then I'm a lot drunk and I'm a stupid drunk, and I get sad when I'm drunk scared to be hurt, your pretty thing in a skirt i hope it's just your way to flirt its just routine im just scared ill hide in your backyard i'll just sleep there i dont know what you mean i dont care ill hide in your backyard follow me there
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Someone and somewhere My head, my heart They broke it I keep on seeking The things that hurt me most What if I could change And still have you by my side What if I could take Back what I said before I imagine getting drunk And thinking of what I missed Memories fading away Dandelions in the air Is it summer, is it winter Seasons don't make that much sense Memories fading away Dandelions in the air I still remember The times were good And gentle When did it change to This absolute distress What if I relived it With the things I know now What if I could take Back what I said before Maybe I should just unplug And focus on what's in my reach Dreams make me all depressed Waking up is a mess I don't think that being obsessed Will help me out in any way At the end of the day All has been done and said What if I could change And still have you by my side What if I could take back what I said before I imagine getting drunk And going over what I missed Memories fading away Dandelions in the air Is it summer, is it winter Seasons don't make that much sense Memories fading away Dandelions in the air
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sometimes I have so much fun i forget about the consequences of my actions and how i'll turn out tomorrow, tomorrow but i don't care i'm just having fun on my bed i'm just having fun on my bed i'm just having fun on my bed fun, on my bed i'm just having fun on my bed i'm just having fun on my bed i'm just having fun on my bed recording this song, lets go
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Today's got endless decisions But I'm still working on my vision I'm falling in slow motion Do you even know? Am I losing my precision? I guess that's how it goes Hey, are you hearing? Are you seeing? Are you feeling? Sensing, breathing? Am I living? Or daydreaming? Do you even hear me singing? How'd it sounded when you’re listening? Was it white noise, only ringing? The silence was oh so deafening. DEEP INSIDE I’M LOUDLY SCREAMING Hopes, dreams, and strong resolve Where does my mind go revolve I've been thinking about the future and I have so much left to see This moment's just a little puncture What will be will always be I hope I’m learning my potential Guess I’ll have to wait and see All I need’s a little structure To be something more than me Are you listening? I'm creating something new and I want to do it with you I'm growing do you notice? I think I'm feeling something
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uhh... guap is unstoppable money is probable get a divorce and she take all my money but i do not worry my bank in a flurry a blizzard of fury i stab you like yuri holy shit, im on a hot streak coins on a throne, i call the the hot seat call up the cash and rap to a hot beat wheres the money, i need the specie (Chorus) im a money maker i stack the paper i got the bag the bread i shag im a money maker i stack the paper i got the bag the bread i shag (Verse) money in my mouth money in my eyes see the money, touch the money walk the money, eat the money be the money, bread i eat the bread big dreams in my head you broke? fuck you then (Verse) i'm narcissistic, i'm pessimistic my view on reality is unrealistic i'll be the shadow in your room i'll piss you off with this tune they tell me i'm fat i'm told i'm a hack i don't fucking care, i'm addicted to crack i'm a nuisance, a discrace and i never come in late and you'll never re-escape cause i'm in your face (Bridge) holy shit, this is the third time i've recorded this. uh... i was too close to my mic so it was clipping as you know... as the best producer i need to stop that... hope you enjoy it. i don't care if you do, i'm not rewriting it. (Chorus) im a money maker i stack the paper i got the bag the bread i shag im a money maker i stack the paper i got the bag the bread i shag
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Every random thing Makes me deadly tired I might burn and freeze today Stay away, close my eyes, let it die I don't want to be involved In my life and yours There's no better outcome How come I am always wrong I have tried, failed, stopped, and gotten bored I don't want to be involved You don't notice me somehow And instead you see me as someone who I am not Putting a square peg in a round hole I don't want to be involved My hands are stained with my warm and red blood I can't help myself Look what you just did Wherever I go There's a pair of eyes that Chases me from dusk till dawn I don't have the power to respond I don't want to be involved It is give and take How much more until you Learn that it's not take and take I must have done give and give too much I don't want to be involved Can you please just let me be? I am done with being your perfect fantasy to see I don't like repeating the same old I don't want to be involved My hands are stained with my warm and red blood I can't help myself Look what you just did
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I saw a decomposing bear, He's lost his eyes, And my boyfriend being picked apart by crows. Afraid of the sun and the setting, Torridness keeping her, Eyes awake in visceral, Misery.
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marion reed I knew you once when we were both sixteen and at the end of every visceral day you'd sit alone basking in the ugly joy of every other nearly college kid oh how it was so white with grief like a wedding dress there are ways for fools like us to borrow names it's all in the execution marion reed i remembered you the other day in a dream dreaming's one of the things that just repeats i hope you never drown in liquor i hear amphetamines scare you quicker wherever you are right now i hope youre as cute as you ever wanted to be there are ways for fools like us to borrow names it's all in the execution
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Don’t go I want you to know Everything that’s been happening to me I am Lost at sea Walking through the empty streets Staying up way past midnight Thinking about your eyes No way of going back Seeing the one thing you lack The ghosts are here Sipping up my tears The ghosts are here Sipping up my tears The ghosts are here Sipping up my tears The ghosts are here Sipping up my tears The ghosts are here Sipping up my tears
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the brave and glorious are gone without a warning maybe we can get back to ourselves i hope its been a long while since you left us, but we'll prevail against our will my blind hope gave you everything serving your worthless cries you always knew how precious the heart could be PRAYING THAT YOUD SEE ME STRUGGLING TO LEAVE YOUR GRASP MAYBE I JUST NEEDED TO BE CLEARER IM NOT SURE ive been told the same thing everytime i didnt wanna believe you did this on purpose ive gotten my senses back ive never felt more dead but if it matters to you my fears still here
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I saw you slipping past through the door I followed but I fell on the floor But you aren't the type to run away I still have much to say But every time I try to talk, you never stay (Let go) I see you everyday I see you everyday I'm never coming back I'm leaving my things for you to pack And I'm not the type to run away But things keep going array And every time I miss you It never stays Cause you're still in my way (Let go) So stay out of my way I see you every day
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you never know how many times someone can lose their mind before throwing everything away for the sake of loved one's paradises . maybe its true we were never meant to rise above the hell were in crying over our mistakes that no one ever saw . . and i forgot how quietly someone can leave . . all that echoes is everytime you said we'd all find some peace if you became history . how the hell are we supposed to live without you here? maybe i shouldve learned to grow up but it still feels like you never left . no matter what i tell myself i still feel like i couldve saved you . . the first time i prayed theres a better place. . . ill never be enough inside my fuckin head but if it means making you happy in any way then ill make sure we all come through for ourselves . . and we can figure this all out. . . im still alive maybe this could count for something i know i got a lot to learn still . i can beg to make it stop complain about the things that hurt you why does every single person pure get hurt so much . and we can go on about how we caused you all your stress but we'll never forget everything you did for us
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i had dreams of altered forms solitary as a storm from that youth came you telepathic truths in midwinter, stowed away, away, away but I love and love calmness in my synthetic borders somnocentesis phonecall to you help, my mind is wandering cigarettes and softer things i don’t talk much, words are cheap i just wish you’d corner me. when i say, “go home,” what i mean’s “don’t go.” words run dry, but i cant leave, cant leave, cant leave I love you I die calmness in my synthetic borders somnocentesis phonecall to you help, my mind is wandering cigarettes and softer things TALK TO ME!!!! TALK TO ME!!!! COMMUNICATE!!!! COMMUNICATE!!!!

about

Hi! I'm Cecily Renns. I make music on the internet.

During my time as a semi-renowned indie bandcamp musician, I've made many friends who are some of the most incredible musicians and artist I've known in my life. For many years, I've dreamed of putting together an art collective and giving an outlet and a platform for these folks.

So I created the Cecily Renns (Para-)Social Club discord server (well I didn't, Bridgette did.) and started assembling this compilation album with Bridgette, AKA biddyfox, AKA the actual organizer of this album.

With her help and the contribution of all the wonderful people who submitted songs for this album, we were able to put together this beautiful, chaotic, absolute *HECK* of an album. I consider this project to be the spiritual continuation of the "cool and new music team", which was the Homestuck shitposting musical collective I was part of, almost 7 years ago. We share the same ethos; just people having a lot of fun making songs together.

Please enjoy! And there's more to come :D - Cecily Renns

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released December 26, 2022

Album organized by biddyfox and Cecily Renns

Album mastered by biddyfox

Album art by: biddyfox, K0IIKI0RE, SnuggleFuck, The Olive Oil Mafia, Pixelien, Katie Chimera, 3UP_Moon, Zombiepaper

Artists who contributed to this album:
Just Fern
sleepcandy
Katie Chimera
Skvader
Cacola
Casac
neharika
IWANNAPONY
FoxKitten
SnuggleFuck
Isabella James
Sonnivate
Lynx Desmond
Epikhobo
Chiffon
K0IIKI0RE
jackyohayo
Tulip
The Olive Oil Mafia
Basin Spectra
fem.
Jaspy
Licence Plate
Ecrylian
ANAFRANIL
biddyfox
Cecily Renns
MIDI Bunny

(Track 27 gang vocals by: Cecily Renns, Bridgette Fox, ANAFRANIL, Epikhobo, The Olive Oil Mafia, sleepcandy, Amber Ammolite, Dylee Dee, Skvader, Chiffon, Alma Thompson, Jackie Ward, Ucklin)

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(Para)-Social Club Oak Ridge, Tennessee

Musical collective organized by MIDI Bunny (Cecily Renns & biddyfox)

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